Hmph, not great.
$140 lost, third month in a row of losses 
I’m tired now of saying that it’s this leak or that leak or it’s all tilt etc. What it’s really feeling like is that it’s all just luck. Some days I get cards, other days I don’t. It’s not suck-outs, bad beats, or river rats – it’s more like sometimes you hit your set when they hit TP, and sometimes you don’t.
My records go back exactly two years now (I’ve probably been playing for three years, but it was a while before I discovered pokertracker & hold’em manager). So I decided to do a lifetime audit;
I’ve played 180k hands (48k in tournaments).
The total winnings (tourney + cash) is -$152.
rackback + bonuses have come to $534.
Final total $381.
However my accounts are a lot less than that, as I had to cash out my entire roll last summer, plus I’ve just taken a share backing BWOP for some live tournaments (Newff had to pull out of his unfortunately). Not sure what to make of it really, other than it’s good to be +ve but somehow still depressing it’s not come from being any good at poker.
from jungleman’s blog:
Once upon a time I had no success, and I only seemed to ever lose when I played poker. I remember people thought I was stupid for playing, one person even implied to me that I was wasting my money playing this game (in almost those words). At some moments I even thought winning was hopeless… But from what I read in poker literature, all my current loses meant nothing in the grand scheme of things (realistic positive). And I was not interested in short term success–I truly believed that I could win (positive thought) if I applied logic and work (realistic thought) eventually my efforts would be availed. It took me nine fucking months of playing poker to even turn a profit, but could anyone say that I was wrong now? My realistic, positive attitude didn’t pay off immediately, but now, a few years later, I have touched the sky.
stress on “nine fucking months”
oh boo hoo, poor jungleman & nine months.
Try 3 fucking years…