I’m having a big motivation problem – I start to play, and if I don’t win the first couple of games I give up. Moving to the $30 games has meant that this month is bigger than any previous month – my win rate is the same as when I was at the $10s and so everything is 3x bigger, but that cuts both ways and the fear of a sudden 10 game losing streak just freaks me out too much. And so as soon as I lose one or two games I just shut down. Totally rubbish!
Which means that this weekend I’ve only played 6 $30 husngs. A pathetic 15 minutes worth of poker out the entire weekend! I did play some PLO as well – an entire 20 minutes worth. All of it breakeven – 54% itm.
What really bugs me is that during the week at work I spend an excessive amount of time thinking about poker, reading 2p2 etc. Being a programmer is a real headfuck of a job though, and by the time the downtools whistle blows I’m so totally braindead all I want to do is go home, eat, watch tv with some beers & fall asleep (best way of describing coding as a job is imagine that each day you’ve been given a book of hard suduko puzzles – you have to finish the book by 5:30pm. Next day start another book). The weekend is the big chance to get some poker time in, and then I go and blow it due to a belief that I’m about to downswing.
Dammit. One day I’ve got to win the Sunday million so I can get my priorities right…
I have similar problems now that I am well in profit for the month, I am having to force myself to play because I am a bit scared of blowing it. I suppose it is better being like this than being a degenerate who’s money burns a hole in their pocket. Unlike you though once I get that first game in I am keen to continue once I realise I still have an edge over the other players.
True – definitely better than having a losing month, so I shouldn’t be complaining too much
Saturday morning was the worst – played two games where both players were sharkscope goldfishes and both went the wrong way. I just started thinking ‘it must be me’ and gave up.
Perhaps I should set a minigoal for a session (at least 5 games say)
think we’re all degenarates. How much time do we spend playing poker when we should be enjoying our lives